Wow...been a while since my last update.  Unfortunately xanga is getting really old for me.  I never make layouts or update very often anymore.

Well, nothing really new...actually yes, but nevermind that......anyway, i went to the El Capiton last weekend with Yume.  it was great.  i got to see Pirates 2 once again in this really awsome theater with specific artifacts from the film such as Jack's toe necklace and Elizibeth's vintage dress.  i also bonded with yume while there with her there.  we talked bout' really personal things, which made me feel better to let out.  everything just gets so bottled up sometimes.  i love her.  my birthday is coming up soon.  i'm thinking about going camping or going to San Francisco with my close friends for a couple of days or so.  I should be pretty fun.

Concerning my friends at the moment, i actually feel like Nanashi and i are fading.  i mean our friendship.  it's really weird, we've never been like this before.  ever since that thing happened, we've been kinda distant.   i feel like we're kind of building up this cordial mask upon eachother, acking like everything is peachy, when we're usually the ones to vent about horrid things and how crapy we feel that day.  it's just not the same anymore.  i suppose we put this apon ourselves by doing what we did, knowing secretly that the consequences would be bad.

Just taking on everyday as it comes at me.  i love you all-

love kitsune

Konichiwa Tomodachis! >O<

well - Today was the frist day of school!  it was actually not bad.  I got to see all of my friends again and give everyone hugs!  i know what ur thinking, kitsune?  hugs?  well, i did because i love all my friends alot!  And Thombo came back!  i missed him alot and i missed his kisses, he's great.  everyone seems to be hangin' in there and seems a tad bit more mature since last year.  i suppose you can expect that. oh, and kody got me a really kickass drawn pic/poster of the great Sephiroth!  i absolutly adore it!!  thanks again cuz! anywho, half way through high school guys!  we're almost there!  alright well, this was quite a short post and i suppose it won't do much good reading this entry if we don't know eachother or attend the same school.  thanks for reading, if read!!  i love ya guys <3

love kitsune!!......(>^-^)>  --  <(^-^<)

P.s.  i make discruntle bird noises...< dedicated to haruko, the big ol' hoe!

< this was ramen and I at one point...T__T

TWO DAYS!!! ::tear::

HOMG, summer is almost completely over!! nuuu!  i know, i'm a whinner.  actually, i have to admit, i guess i'm kinda happy that school is starting.  i get to see all of my friends again and start a new year with the advantage of being an upper classman.  i hope it'll be a good year.  i hope there will be no big huge drama thing that splits our friends apart, which i guess has already happened.  i suppose it can only go up from here, right?  well, i sure hope so.

I had the strangest dream a night ago.  I dreamt that Shirley Temple hooked up with Hitler to the kill the Jewish.  She was all demonic and crazy, but she looked perfectlly normal riding on her little bicyle.  It was insane!  Quite commical now that i really think about it, LOL. >o<  Anywho, Kody is commin' back today!  yay!  it's has been a while since i've spoken with him, i hope he's doin okay. 

I got a shot today....it hurt.  phooey. n_n but i survived it!!  they put a looney toons bandaid on me so it was A' okay.  it is suppose to protect me from a certain "women type cancer", if you know what i mean.  the shot is pretty new too.  i guess women fourteen through twenty something are only aloud to get it.  they say it won't affect women over the max age, kind of a downer for some. Alright, well i'll see most of you at school on Monday.  take care everyone

love kitsune <3 

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harro-

well, it's been while since my last update, and i'm sorry for the rather boring and angry rant.  i just got alittle irritated i suppose.  anywho, i just got back from a school car wash and it was really hot!!  i hate our weather here!  >o<

so, i went to Disneyland last week and it was fun but also dispointing all at once.  well you see, now that i'm older i can see the "real" d-land, if that makes any sence.  the workers there hate working there and even the people in costumes can get out of character.  i was in line buying something and the cashier muttered, "ugh, i want to go home.  this place is so not he happiest place on earth."....i was like O__O....kinda shocking.  but it was just kinda disapointing, ya know.  he kinda sucked the magic out of the day.  blah.....omg call-out to Nanashi!!: i read ur dream post bout' me dying.  very tragic, but freakishly, that would be the best way for me to die.  i'd love to die that way.

well, thats all for now.  love ya guys. <3 take care

love kitsune-

P.S. : i got ah myspace again, my mum finally decided it would be hokay (again):  http://www.myspace.com/royalmilktealolita

how is everyone doing?  only three more weeks until dreaded school starts!!!  no fair!!

well, lets see.  I spend the night at Nanashi's like a week ago.  it was fun.  we actually kinda snuck out of the house at midnight-ish and went to the nearby park to get picked up by Anton and go to abandoned houses and just be crazy kids.  unfortunately Anton ended up having to go the work and Mizumi couldn't meet us at the park either, i think she got caught while sneaking out.  it's funny because i just told Tom the other day that i'm not a bad kid and here i go sneaking out of the house for alittle fun. >_<...bad impression, much?  i dunno, i'm just so held back by the metal chains cast around me by my mother that it actually makes me want to do things that my mother doesn't want me to such as: sneak out, be in a rock band, embrace the real freak in me, and the worst of all wearing lolita.  i have no idea why she's so caught up on me not wearing lolita.  i think she doesn't want me to make her look bad or look like a "bad parent".  since when did wearing adorable, elegant dresses make a person look bad???  it's just so freakin' frustrating!!  she's just sucking everything real about myself out of me and turning me into some plastic nothing that she wants me to be.  is it really a crime to be yourself these days?  i mean, in America you have the choice to choose your own sexuality but now it's come to not wearing certain clothing?  WTF?!  i know it sounds stupid and imature that i'm venting about clothing but Elegant Gothic Lolita isn't just clothing.  it's a way of living, a state of mind, a deep passion and an expression of who you are.  no one should have to be questioned or judged by their own self-expression.  that is still something that the earths people needs to adapt to and learn.  that's why i love Mana so much, because he is a man but yet he dresses in lolita as a women and doens't give a crap.  he's so gorgious!  Mana is my hero-

ugh...whatever.  i'm leaving for a week to my grandmother's and to D-land today so.  sorry for the rant above, but it can really just start to eat away at you sometimes.